[Turning Tables - Adele]

Unbeknownst to some people, I have this little perfectionist trait in me. It often contradicts with my other traits; it usually doesn't get along well with my well-known trait - inconsistency.

One example; when in school, we scribble notes and do exercises in notebooks, right? Okay. On some normal, non-perfectionist days, if I make a mistake, like normal students do, I'd cover it up with a liquid paper. Some other days, I'd rip that page out and started scribbling the same thing again on a new page. Some horrible, perfectionist days, I'd take out a new notebook, and started to write the same things, from page one to the page that I was unsatisfied about.

And I'm telling you, that is actually not so bad.

The worst thing was that if I find my handwriting were not consistent or if I messed up my colour coding; I'd start a new book. I don't even have a nice handwriting to begin with, I just need them to be consistent. The problem is, if I were to put it in proportional terms, my consistency trait is much much much smaller in comparison to that of perfectionist.

This is actually nothing compared to perfection vs. lazy.

But anyways, that's not my point. In this entry, I want to point out that in general, I don't like mistakes (of my own). If I could get rid of them, I would. I definitely would. (Who wouldn't, right?) But mistakes in life aren't that easy to erase. We don't have a life eraser. If we don't like someone or something, we can't just take out our eraser/liquid paper or click the delete button and simply erase him/her/that thing out of our lives. The same goes to our memory; we can't simply delete those memories we don't want to remember. Our memory doesn't come with a delete button.

So in the mean time, all we can do is to live through that mistake. Time will take care of it. And just hope that someday, all things we don't want to remember will fade into dusts. And we'll be able to blow them away.