"There is nothing better than a friend, unless it is a friend with chocolate."
- Charles Dickens

Trying to keep calm all week while your heart is raging is definitely not an easy feat. I have to admit, I am currently kinda sorta disappointed with a close friend. But I guess I have no right to bring it up and tell that friend about how upset I am, because, admittedly, I haven't been the greatest friend either.
Other than the fact that I'm such a lousy friend, I guess it's also because it's such a petty thing that's not worthy of the awkwardness that will come after the matter is brought up.
So, yeah. That's basically what's in my head when people ask me how I've been doing lately. It's all hidden under the "Well, I've had better days..." or "Okay, I guess..."

I'm pretty sure that that friend of mine will not read this anyway. She rarely comes to this place (if not never), and in case you're wondering, this is wayyyy farrrr from the thing that's bothering me right now. Seriously, I don't think I ever cared about my friends not reading what's written here. I usually tell them what's in my head in the form of verbal gossips. This place is more like a reminder for yours truly. Kinda awesome if somebody other than myself wants to read my messy writings, but totally fine otherwise.

So anyhow, if you're reading this and wondering whether YOU are that friend whom I'm currently so childishly upset about, fear not, it is probably not you. Actually, I can guarantee that it is most definitely not any of you, my obvious and silent readers. (bajet hebat boleh tahu siapa silent readers. lol.)

And to the readers, sorry for yet anotherrrr emotional post. Hahahaha. What in the world is wrong with me -always sharing my negative emotions-, even I have no idea.

"Those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind."
- Bernard Baruch.

Don't wish that you can forget the things you don't want to be reminded of. Instead, wish you can always find your way out if you happen to get lost in it.
Make sure you hold on tight to your memories, bitter as it may be.
Careful not to lose them, but be as cautious not to dwell on them too much that you get lost in them.
Allow yourself to make new memories. Open up your doors. You might be able to collect enough sunshine to counter the gloominess inside.
But remember, you cannot screen the bad ones from coming in as well when you open up your doors for new things. As hard as you tried not to let the bugs in, they'll always find their way to just slip out of your sight and into your space. Nevermind, let them in anyway. Then run as fast as you can to the nearest store and get yourself one of those Ridsect or Pumakilla sprays, and kill them instantly.
[Attempt at being funny: FAIL. Terribly. But who cares? I do. No I don't. No, I do.]

Anyways. It's just like what my girl Kelly Clarkson says:
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger!

or if you prefer to be more like a sir:
That which does not kill us makes us stronger. *tilts head with imaginary hat*
- Friedrich Nietzche.

Wow.. The kind of crap you'd actually let yourself publish when the hormones got the better of you, hazerq!

Score: Shrink Hormones 168, Stupefied Hazerq nil.

Okay. Now where is that bar of chocolate I bought just now?

[Good Life - One Republic]

I had just crossed the finish line for my Veronica Mars marathon (all 3 seasons) yesterday and I cannot believe they end the season (AND the entire series) like that! Are you frikkin kidding me? Can somebody pleaaaseee make a disclosure episode or something? Seriously. I hate it when they do that, the leaving-things-like-this-for-your-own-interpretation stuff. Yeah, I'm such an Asian, I know. I'm one of those kids who write down the answers on the question papers in exams and bring back those question papers home so I can check the answers. Be it good or bad, I feel settled when I get disclosures. I like the phrase "I know this is coming" more than "I didn't expect that".

Oh, and not that I lack imagination, though. My imaginations can go wild, trust me.
For example, back in this townhouse I lived in during my university days, I imagined the fridge in the kitchen above my bedroom crushing my head in my sleep if there happens to be an earthquake because it's located parallel to my bed. I also imagined the dishwasher and oven doing the same thing after relocating my bed. (I then settled with having to stare at the bottom of the fridge whenever I close my eyes in my bed, because my imagination said the fridge is lighter than the other two)
Why hadn't I thought about the possibility of the concrete floor smashing me first?
Because that would be too mainstream, of course. Come on, where's your imagination?

Oookay that actually explains more about me being paranoid than imaginative, doesn't it? Well.
*ehem*
So forget about the example.

My imagination can go wild, trust me. Period.

You know what happens when you're 23?
The first question that comes to other people's mind when they see you is "So when are you getting married?"
Tip: Tomorrow is always the best answer.

You know what other things happen when you're 23?
You forget where you parked your car. Spend half an hour blindly looking for it, while fighting with your pounding headache and burning a few calories along the way.

You know what's great about being 23?
You get to see the true meaning of "a friend in need is a friend indeed".

Congratulations, Harimau Muda for winning the gold medal at the 2011 SEA Games! It was a very intense and nerve wrecking game to watch, though I must say, the equalizer goal from Asra & the penalty shootout from Baddrol were kinda funny to me, seeing how both times, the ball golek2 its way through the goal posts. Haha.

[basket case - greenday]

My overthinking syndrome is so bad, I even think too much while playing tetris battle on facebook.
Which is obviously the main reason why I always lose, since tetris battle (unlike tetris friends) tests you more on speed rather than, I don't know, strategy?

...
Oh shit, there's no place to put square!
Shit.
Em, what's the skip button again?
Emmmmmmm. Shift!
Yes, shift. Why do I always forget that?
*clicking shift button*
*T-piece comes in*
Okay now where should I put you? If I put you here, I can kill more rows... but if I put you here... shitttt!
Why attack me now?!!! Dammit!
It's okay it's okay I can still win this.
He's only *checks his score* 9 rows ahead, anddd *checks time* 40secs to go...
*fixfix*
Nooo, I don't need you now reverse S-piece, I need the long piece for god's sa... oh mannnnn...
*times's up*
*you lose*
...

Seriously? Tetris god, what did I ever do to deserve your wrath? Why won't you give me the pieces that I need at the right time? Seriously!

In the famous case of the kid who got rolled by motorvehicles twice, and sadly, shamely ignored by 18 passersby, of course, we cannot help but question the existence of our humanity value.
Where does humanity stand today? Is it in the same category as chivalry - dead?

My say, fix the law. Laws are supposed to make us more civilized. If the existence of law makes us more inhumane, I believe the time has come for change to take place.